Many of the books we consult during "parenting crises" remind us to be empathetic. At the end of the day (especially after the end of a long travel day), Miguel is a small child, with different needs and global understandings. This can be easy to forget, especially when he holds his own in conversations with, admittedly, generous adults.
The trip from the mountains to the coast was a little rough. He and I were at each other's throats much of the day. I knew most of his "misbehavior" and my shorter than usual fuse were related to all the changes, and the fact that we were cooped up most of the day in various forms of transport. Still, my empathy tank kept running low. If Miguel could write, here is what his journal entry from May 30th might look like, if, er, he wrote with my voice. I can't wait to read his own pieces.
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Woke up in a strange, but comfortable bed, in a room with my parents. Mom and I goofed around with all the pillows while Dad showered. She tossed the pillows from one bed into the other so I could catch them. I built a baseball stadium and invited her over for a White Sox game. When she came to my bed and gave me her ticket, I thanked her and told her it was now a church. She helped me build a little steeple, but it kept falling down.
We tried to go to breakfast, but nobody was up yet at our hotel. I was mad because firewood was stacked in what I usually use as a pretend canoe. Mom suggested I try the sofa instead. She just doesn't get it.
(Mom defends herself: "Hey, I was still recovering from having poured myself a cup of coffee, only to discover it was the cold, leftovers from the day before.)
I ran around with Dad while Mom continued "repacking." I think she was just hiding from us. Breakfast eventually came as other guests woke up at more reasonable times. I ate my crepe and demanded more. Mom gave me hers. Thanks, Mom! The best part was that she had also given me her old cell phone from Chicago that had been unearthed during the move from Banos. She let me have it!!!! There was a crying baby at breakfast and Mom suggested I let him see it for a few minutes. He smiled. Maybe sharing has some upsides.
While Mom and Dad settled up the bill, I hung out downstairs with Luis, our taxi driver. He let me sit in the truck and then the driver's seat. Whenever Mom would poke her head downstairs to see if I was making trouble (way to show your trust, Mom), I would tell to go back upstairs in Spanish. Luis thought was was pretty funny. After I started hoking the horn, she came storming down the stairs again and told me to stop. Why does she always show up just when I am starting to have a really good time? Luis didn't seem to mind. Everyone else was laughing. She said something about other guests sleeping. Always thinking about "other people" instead of me.
We started off on the long ride to Quito. When Mom and Dad realized the seatbelts actually worked in the taxi, they insisted I use one. We have been in Ecuador for months, and we hardly ever use seatbelts. Sometimes we sit in truck beds and on top of busses. So why were they all of a sudden telling me to buckle up??? Make up your mind, people. I like to be on my knees; I can't see out the window when I am sitting.
They asked Luis to stop so we could have a little time out, my first one in a long time, really. (
This is true and I feel guilty that during these last few days of travel, we have had more need for cooling off than in the last few months.) After we all settled down, I agreed to a compromise--that I would sit on Mom's lap with the buckle around both of our hips. She taught me to watch big drops of rain fall down the window. I asked if I would ever see Simon again, and we talked about being sad to leave Banos and our friends. Then I conked out and slept for a few hours, waking up as we rolled into Quito, which has houses climbing up the mountain sides.
We stopped by a hotel to drop off some of our bags that we didn't want to bring with us to the beach. It turns out that some of my toys didn't even make it out of Banos. When I asked Mom where my sword was she made up some story about not being able to bring swords on planes. Couldn't we put it in the checked bags, like Daddy did with his pocketknife? Why do *they* get to decide what *I* bring?? How would she feel if I decided to just leave some of her clothes behind?
(Mom's defense: I did ask Miguel 's input for books and toys to give away to friends in Banos. He was willing to part with a few, but I did make some other executive decisions. I gave away a lot of my clothes too. . .Kiddo, when you can carry your own luggage, we can talk again about what gets to come along.)
My day started looking up when we got to the airport. Planes!!!! We got some lunch and Mom and Dad let me pick out a small treat for dessert. My meal came with Coke too, but they said no to that at first, and Daddy started drinking it. Hypocrite. Then they let me have a sip, and told me I could choose to have the last few sips of the drink, or have a dessert. They have this think about pop being like a dessert. I don't get it--they let us drink Coca Cola at school!
(This is one of my few complaints about Miguel's school--so many sweets in so many forms. The sugar barrier has been broken in a big way!)
For dessert, I picked a marshmallow bear on a stick. As we walked outside to get to the domestic terminals, I saw a man with a huge shotgun standing in front of a truck. I told my mom I was going to go talk to him, and she clutched my hand and got all tense. "No. Way." I asked and asked why I couldn't go talk to him, and she mumbled something about him being very focused and us not wanting to bother him. Mom and Dad get weird whenever I bring up guns and killing and hunting.
We went through security and did a great job staying close. Mom rubbed my hair and gave me a compliment. Finally--I did something right today! When we got to our gate I saw some planes. I got permission to run to the window and they even let me use one of the cameras. I saw people walking outside and a yellow brick road leading to the planes. When it was our turn, we followed the road. I skipped ahead. Mom kept reminding me to stay on the path. Duh, I know!!
On the plane, we fought some more about me having to wear a seat belt. I squirmed and yelled while she glared and sighed. She thinks that if she doesn't yell, she gets credit for being calm. Ha! I know every little face twitch. On the upside, the flight attendants gave us boxes of juice before take-off.
After a too short plane ride, we walked down to a steaming hot tarmac. When they said we were going to the beach, they failed to mention it would be hot. They *know* I like to be cold. When I tried to take my shirt off, Mom said--you guessed it--no.
I killed a moth while we were waiting for our bags. Dad got upset. I don't see the big deal. They kills flies all the time.
It was so hot in the taxi, and we had another fight about the seat belt. She won, again. We were stopped right outside by a bunch of police in gray uniforms, with guns (not like I can talk to Mom about that), and Dad made up something about them checking for seatbelts. Whatever.
(They needed to see all of our papers.. . something about issues related to being so close to the Columbia border.)
Mom was right that once we got going, the wind from the windows would cool us off. She even changed seats with me, so that I could be by the window that worked. We joked about our hair dancing, and I gave her a kiss. But then we started bickering about something. I think it was that I got upset when I spilled half the bottle of our water. Mom wanted me to just Get. Over. It and stop complaining. She even suggested it might help cool me down. She wasn't the one sitting in a puddle of water. She and Dad changed seats shortly after that. Dad found a piece of card board for me to sit on. Thanks, Dad.
When we finally pulled into our hotel, no one was around. Cerrado. But someone finally showed up, and after he let us pick out a room (we had our choice, being the only guests), he TOOK ME ON A SHORT RIDE ON HIS MOTORCYCLE!!!! I can't believe my nervous-nelly parents let me do that
(me neither--maybe we were overcompensating for the seatbelt struggles? Come on, the kid's got to have *some* fun.) I wanted to drive it myself but, again and again: NO.
Then, Dad and I walked down to the beach. I ice skated on the sand (
his words) and played in the warm waves. Ah. . . . this day was turning out to be all right. But just as I was starting to get comfortable, once again the BOSSES intervened. They think giving me a two minute warning somehow makes up for the fact that THEY CONTROL MY DAY!! What if Mom was working on the computer and I just decided her time was up? Sure, a two minute warning would help her finish her sentence but she'd still be pissed.
When we got to my pile of clothes, I sat down in a pile of sand. Dad lost it, grabbed my arms and yelled something about "Now you have to take a shower to get all the sand off" while Mom looked horrified and came to my defense: "It was an accident--he didn't know that would happen!!" I liked that she understood, and helped Dad understand, but I don't like it when they start to bicker too.
The highlight of dinner was that they let me have a little ice cream for dessert. I was in a grand mood throughout the meal, but they just kind of sat there like lumps, piping up every now again with an annoying reminder to be careful. Do they think I knock glasses over on purpose?
I saw a frog outside and Dad let me chase her around, but he wouldn't let me catch her due to the earlier moth incident.
After dinner, we returned to our rustic cabin. Another night in a strange bed. Thankfully, my bunnies (and my parents) were close. I don't buy Mom's story about ghosts living in Antarctica.